ohh that wasnt mean everythings

the easiest way for me to denote i am adoring certain persons ,simply when i bear to do all stuff just for them,i try to analyse myself more n im not lying when i told , me is just same as action speak louder than words , particularly, been proved when i had so much senses over my friends but the things wouldnt be same or even similar to related i am , we cant be soo hoping on our friends, maybe i found a failure in my attempt, but doesnt mean i had give up , u noe how much i love my friends , i love more than myself ,or rather die for them but not all cant understand what my attitude indicates of , my mom said that i am too emosional n too obsess in befriended ! yes thats the true me , confessing that i am really too emo at first just made me terrible conducting my feeling , but when i tried to take all of what i had done in my life out , now ,i admit ,my mom was not wrong , i try to make a change ,by peeking out off all i had offended , and i beg my friends could understnd n accept me n i failed again , they cant , or perhaps me ,

seriously ,tremendous experiances i had faced , by teeling out whole my problems to others is not me , im just silence and see people around happily with their friends , it such so horrible in making friends , no one like zaty aisyah or even hanah , but its fine , im glad to see they are amused or exhilarated along their journey as friends , happiness wont show directly ,consequently need time to be exposed ,delegating more efforts on,

ryte now ,i really don care about my feeling towards them , sometime i thought they might be not the true friends to me but it wasnt describe i have to move out of their life , i have to accept the fact how they were like , this is really meant , somehow to force people like ur or love us is not just easy as ABC , but what more could i do , just ignore wht i felt n follow them , as i said , need time thoroughly to seek for hppiness ;)

nevertheless , those their behaviours do get me down so often ,but the reality have to be accepted that they do not suit to me occasionally , i hope im gonna be cured quickly when i get to be hurted ;)