it almost 4 a.m

i don knoe what truly happen to me till i couldnt ever sleep even a minute and now im still not feel either sleepy or haven sleeping beauty on bed .i have no idea since my mind was fluctuating roll to the left and ryte , maybe it was final fever ,i have to face for 4 papers more and should be answered well respectively,i have to fight when i said the perfection is only the option in my life, this is so important where i absolutely want my parents noticed how my capability on managing my studies going on within i have stayed here for almost 5 months , i noe i was obviously not a good daughter to them or even not-so-sweet daughter as well but i have the reason to promote myself ,

and today i was a bit moodless . the carrymarks  were totally make me down .==' ,out of my expectations,but my mom said ,i have to be a grateful person , whatever u got ,its only to be yours , u deserved those even how much efforts ,u'd put a good face on but still not satisfied enough ,no matter how the way u wanna deal ,u have to accept those nicely without giving up earlier , after a meanwhile, my mom's saying was very meant to me ,thnks mom ;)

later on , i must to compete with those 4 sbjects listed chemistry,biology,pre-calculus and also physic ,if other people can do great , me too could give a damn to the delivery soon , there's no fail attempts i hope,may Allah is always by my side , assist me how to cope the hard things in every my days ,give me some strengths to gain the skills of solving certain problems over the difficulty occurs.

in my life , i would never forget of my friend's or other people's deeds , plus , also the insulting had thrown to me would always in mine , but im not so cruel to repay whole the badness of , the preference as memorable or experiences are the most significant to figure out how my maturity'd grown up,;)
day and night i prayed ,wish all my friends could accept me and adore me as well as i adore them so much , indeed , friends are sosooo valuable to every one's life ,not only me but other people will always do ,

the last with the angel , i craved of my bubu ;)