unwanted mean useless

a very merciful to Allah for giving me such delightful days along the journey i had been for ,
well u noe ,life actually experiences much of adventurous events throughout what were craved by us 
and same goes to me when i often crave for everything that look obviously intresting ,very attractive and something that could make me feel amazing having the stuff ;)

in spite of that ,i knew that i would never received all of them spontaneously,or else there may be an incredible thing happened and must obtain some effort n patience to deserve ,
everything going so smooth but when the word friend been thrown ,totally make me miserable thinking of thing i hate most ,

i felt useless ,whenever be with friend ,this the reality should be accepted when we're not at all needed by friend ,can be proved by situation begin and end without any word and the episodes were exctly filled by zero content in order to seek the meaning of real friend of ,this will never ended in my world ,and i'd surveyed for every things'd done ,im the only one would ask for forgiveness alone , that;s very fine to someone like me ,i hate to endure entire of these ,

supposedly,i ought not to be so adorable to friend i ought not to love friend anymore , i beg u' havent  noe how pain it is ,begging to person who doesnt care for other people and see us just an useless person , i wouldnt risk myself anymore for this stupid story , and fot the last it ,i wont ever hope for a friend . what will i gain soon is just mean for a day not for whole days, tired of loving a friend who i rely on and she was only ignore us, expecting nothing gonna be so offensive ..